Healing of eating disorder
This great testimony came in response to the how to stop smoking entry, the one about changing your self-definition:
Something like this concept helped me finally conquer bulimia about 12 years ago. I'd struggled with this and anorexia (and the combination of the two) for the previous 12 years. Ups and downs, stops and starts, etc., but couldn't totally stop.
During the mid-90s, I really started growiing spiritually in earnest, delving deeper into the Bible and actually *reading* Science and Health like a book, not just with the Bible Lesson. I was learning a lot, and LOVING what I was discovering and learning—much was familiar to me as I'd "grown up in Christian Science", but it all seemed so new and it was really resonating with me. But I was still falling into the eating/binging/purging pattern with great regularity.
Then one day, while in the midst of "an episode", it was soooo clear to me—like a direct statement in my thought, a bolt of lightening—"This isn't me! Doing this is not part of who I am!" And that was it. Literally it. No more binging and purging since.
Yes, there have been some times, really very few, that I've been "tempted" to do this again. At those times, I reaffirm that this idea is not mine nor God's to me, that it has not part of me and my identity, and it quickly subsides. Can't even remember the last time I've felt tempted! It is such a feeling of freedom to remove this false label that I'd applied to myself and to see more clearly the real me as God has labeled me. Not a binger or bulimic, but whole, healthy, balanced.
Thanks for your post today and the reminder it provided for me!
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