God and Mother Teresa
Perhaps you've all seen the press on Mother Teresa. My heart breaks for her—and typically, I’m not coming to the same conclusion that anyone else apparently is. [To my friend MT (who ironically shares the same initials as Mother Teresa), if you're reading this, you're going to find it very irritating. Suggest skipping it if you haven't yet had your breakfast.]
Early in Mother Teresa's career, she experienced a direct dialog with Christ Jesus. He tasked her with helping people in India. In the ecstasy of this moment, she accepted wholeheartedly, most likely expecting Jesus would continue at her side throughout. But she did not receive any further visitations from her Lord. She yearned for this presence, but never found it again.
What she did go on to do was establish an organization that helped thousands. When accepting her Nobel Peace Prize, she said, "... radiating joy is real … because Christ [is] in our hearts, Christ in the poor we meet, Christ in the smile we give and in the smile that we receive."
Feel free to disagree here anytime, but in this story I do not see someone cut off from God. If I may be so bold as to say this, what I'm seeing is someone who moved beyond a personal sense of Deity without knowing it. All the arguments about Mother Teresa seem to stem from the fact that she no longer saw Jesus. She had always been taught and firmly believed that Jesus is God, so to her, this was the equivalent of no longer being connected with God. Yet her own words reveal an understanding of Christ as a spiritual concept, in fact omnipresent. It just wasn't the Christ she longed for.
And that is why my heart breaks for her. Her own Godlikeness moved her forward spiritually to the point that what she yearned for she could no longer have. She continued to yearn for it, though, all her life. It was her central tragedy, and she had no tools to assuage it.
I relate to this in a small way. A lot of my spiritual story revolves around seeking approval from a church institution that is incapable of giving it in the way I need it. I've had to learn to do without that approval and find a more direct line to divine acceptance—at the moment, I'm going it alone as a way to sort this out. The desire for institutional approval may continue to be a thorn in my side for the rest of my life, but the human struggle is unrelated to my actual connection to Love. I know I'll awake to the true facts and be free from the struggle one day.
I deeply pray that this is the case for Mother Teresa. I so hope that what she found when she crossed over was a spiritualized concept of God that conveyed to her the loving truth that He had always, always been there with her, for every footstep she took, every brow she bathed, every mouth she fed. She was never alone—she always had her Lord.
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